I feel like this month is just the worst and I've been doing everything I can to keep myself happy and to not go back into my depressed state of mind. Just like everyone else I also suffer from depression and there are some months that are worse than others. I usually have the toughest time during the months that I had my slip up and ended up somewhere bad for like a year. My friends and family always tell me the same thing over and over again. “You’ll get over it; it's just a stage of your life." Or "Don't dare think of doing that stuff because it's selfish." So my question to everyone reading is why do people think it's the best to treat suicidal or depressed people like children or like shit in that matter. Shouldn't you try and treat them like a bomb that might go off or should you shake it until it goes off and then tell it that it was being stupid for letting the shaking to set it off. I feel like I'm talking from my own point of prospective, but isn't it the same case with anyone with these thoughts or brain disorder? Oh and you probably don't think that depression is a brain disorder or has anything to do with a defected brain, but it actually does. You know why chocolate makes people happy for no reason? Its cause it contains a chemical that makes your brain hit the happy button for your body. Surprising some people are born with not enough of this chemical so it cause depression in the person and is usually hard to control without meds. Here would be a simple solution you might say, "Well eat more chocolate." Well it's not that easy and I personally hate chocolate...I know so not American! But it looks and smells like poop. Once again this is my own opinion and most people like chocolate. Any hoo chocolate doesn't fix the problem. It looks like I totally got off topic or where I was going with this rant...Why do people treat sad people so harsh? When someone has a boo boo doesn't mean you have to smash salt into the wound or slap it..Unless you're an evil villain or just heartless. I just don't get it. I've gone through so many times where a friend or a family member gets furious with me about the way I think or feel. Like I can't help that I'm thinking about ending my life or that I want to stay in bed and not come out. Can you at least stop being a jerk and try understanding how I feel or anyone else feels for that matter. Don't shake the crying baby! The word selfish gets thrown around too much and I don't know how to explain to someone that it's not helpful. Shouldn't people already know that? It's not like telling me to stop acting depressed or thinking about hurting me is going to switch a switch and I'll jump up like a jelly bean and smile brightly and, shout: "Okay, I'm happy now." It doesn't work that way. Like at this horrible time we need all the support we can get and being a meany head isn't support. Just hug us or tell us to hang in there. Don't ask what you can do to make us happy cause half the time we don't even know what's causing the pain. Just make us an awesome bubble bath with rubber duckie and cool boats and keep us busy. Most doctors or psychologist will say that by sitting alone gives your brain enough time to think deeply about all your issues or stuff that can relapse you back into a sad state..So bust out that clay and make pretty things or go blow bubbles in the park! Hopefully these ideas help you out with your own depression or cloudy days. If not then I'm sorry I'm not a doctor and was only trying to help. Seriously don't blame me because this stuff doesn't work for me half the time either. I don't want to say everything gets better cause that’s not completely true, but I do wanna say that even during the toughest time.Just know that someone loves you and I appreciate you breathing the same air as I do.
Just so you know my rant comes from my friend, who clearly isn't the best friend I thought he was, getting mad at me cause I didn't talk to him when I was having huge issues dealing with Olivers recent passing..WHAT A BEEF JERKY HEAD!
If you ever feel depress and just want to vent about your issues feel free to contact me whenever.
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